I want to scream so much.

But I can't. I can't say anthing against her. I cannot.

I want so much to swear and cuss at her. To turn the blasphemy she utters back at her. Hatred swells in my heart, yet I'm filled with deep melancholy. I cannot strike back at her, no matter what she says.

"She's so stupid."

"A waste of my bedroom space."

"She pretends to be so good, but she never listens in class and gets f9s and underlines all over her report book."

"Useless. Stupid. Waste of electricity."

lies. blasphemy. hatred. anger. sadness.

What have I done to deserve this? All I did was love you, try to help you, try to understand you and help you stand on your own two feet.

What did I do to you?

But, afterall, I cannot hate you.

Because, you are,

my one and only sister.

and after all that you say and do to me.

Throw a scissors at my head.

Threaten to chop me with a kitchen knife.

Drowning me by 'accident'.

Laughing and mocking my every downfall.

After all that, I cannot hate you.

I may be angry. I may say hurtful things, but I can never hate you.

So, why do you hate me?

::Written byEve at 4:59 AM::
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